i really hate letting people down. i will go to great lengths to make sure i make good on a commitment. when i fail, i become my biggest enemy. self-imposed guilt will ruin me.

what's worse is hurting someone. not only are they disappointed in you, but trust is damaged and you've made another person sad. again, i will go to great lengths to avoid hurting anyone.

sometimes, however, you are faced with situations where you have to be honest with yourself and do something that is going to hurt for a while. sometimes it's just best for both people that you endure a little pain.

heartache is the worst kind of pain.

i wish i hadn't caused it...



...but i did.