get on with it
those that have spent any amount of time around chimchim these past six months know that i have been a monkey of few words for quite some time. for a while this was due mostly to having someone to share my daily thoughts with in person. that was truly a blessing even though the content here suffered because of it. more recently, the lack of thoughts here have been due to a traffic jam of emotion and ramblings within my own head. at times it actually does become difficult to breathe.
also at issue is the feeling that no one wants to hear about the things that i am going through. or perhaps, more honestly, i don't really want to put those things down here. i've never wanted this to be a place to enlighten people of the daily occurances of my life. especially when others are involved.
now, after a month, the fog is lifting on what has been a tough battle to find the balance between two halves of my mind. to get "a" and "b" to communicate and agree. i'm certainly not a pillar of strength, but i'm able to deal and that's important.
much has happened in the past 4 weeks of my life. a love was lost; friends have been made and others restored; there is a new creative outlet that brings in what was lacking.
i managed to complete the task of a redesign, with no fanfare. it is exactly what i need at the moment. simplicity is key here. i've always tried so hard to put so much into everything i do that i stifle myself. there is no perfection here and that too is important. perfection is not needed, nor desired. it is, for me, a strange kind of maturity of self-awareness.
here i am...
...so what now?
just one question
20x2 will once again be a part of the sxsw events this coming spring and you have an opportunity to play a big part. 20x2 organizers want to see what you would ask. Please help out by going to the site and submitting your own question. if you are unfamiliar with the format, 20 speakers are given 2 minutes to answer the same question. the first two years were "what is interactive?" and "what is real?". i am very proud to have been asked to be one of this year's participants and cannot wait to get the question (and my little banner ad).
